Blognya Miss Findra

Hari ini adalah salah satu hari yang paling menegangkan dalam hidupku. Urusan hidup dan mati seseorang. Hiks..

Diawali dengan sebuah sms dipagi hari, seperti biasanya setiap pagi selalu sms utk memberi tahu apa yg akan dilakukan hari ini ditambah kata2 penyemangat. Karena sms pagi ini mengatakan kalau tadi bangunnya kepagian tp mau pergi, so aku bilang “ntar pegangan yg kenceng, jgn bo2 di jalan”. Well, waktu berjalan terus sampe siang sekitar pukul 1. Tiba2 telpon rumahku berdering nyaring, kring..kring.. Tumben banget siang2 berdering, dan biasanya pasti salah sambung. Soalnya telp rumahku cuma berdering di malam hari kala si dia ingin ngobrol denganku. Ku angkat telpon dengan sangkaan salah sambung. Tapi, ternyata si penelpon mencari Findra. Lho aku? Dan aku tak mengenal suara itu. Ada apa gerangan? Oh.. ternyata ternyata… Ya ya..

Secepat kilat aku berlari ke garasi dan menjejakkan kakiku ke kopling, rem dan gas. Uhuy, tiba2 ngebut dijalanan yg padat merayap. Aku mencari setiap sela yg ada, untung mobilnya langsing. Saat2 genting begitu, ada aja halangan dijalan.. Kesal campur tegang.. membayangkan apa yg sedang terjadi disana.. Bayangan2 muncul dikala aku mencari celah di jalan raya, hingga air mataku menggenang.. tapi tidak sampai menetes dipipi lho.. Oh lamanya perjalanan tadi, rasanya ga sampe2.. Udah ngepot sana-sini, udah klakson2 dan main lampu biar bisa duluan. Huff… Sampe akhirnya aku berbelok ke jalan yang dimaksud. Mataku mencari2 dimanakah mereka? Kulihat disisi kiri jalan.. tak ada sesuatu yg menarik.. Lalu dengan cepat ku alihkan pandanganku ke sisi kanan.. Dan.. Oh… NOOOO… JESUS CHRIST!!

He’s dying.. Gemetar tubuh ini ternyata tak mengendorkan otot2ku untuk menyelamatkannya. Tumben banget aku bisa memutar mobilku dijalan seramai itu dan secepat itu.. Tuhan, pasti tangan-Mu lah yang membantuku memutar mobil.. Ke RS? He said no. Dan setelah menempuh perjalanan yang tak kalah hebohnya saat berangkat tadi, ditambah dengan air mata yg akhirnya menetes juga dipipi, tibalah kami rumahku.. Dan dia selamat.. Fiuhh… Praise God.. Tapi belum selega itu juga sih, soalnya masa2 kritis belum berakhir.. Dari siang tadi, aku menungguinya sampai jam 22.30.. Skrg dia lagi tidur dengan lelap. Terima kasih Tuhan. Aku percaya Tuhan sedang memulihkannya sekarang. Semangat terus!! Tanpa lelah, ku kan tetap menemaninya..

Last night in my dream, i met Nick Vujicic, the Life Without Limbs founder. It was so fast, but so clear. He said to me that i have to be patient, live in the light of truth, and stop wasting my time.

I don’t know why I dream about him saying those advices. I even didn’t think about him lately. Maybe it’s God’s messages for me. Thank you God, thank you Nick. I hope someday i can meet you in real life.

Last night was also a sleepless night, just like another Tuesday
nights before. I couldn’t sleep last night because I thought too much in the afternoon.
It started with a call from Mrs. Sapty asking me to replace her lecturing today
in Data Structure theory class. She sent me the ppt file, the material to teach
today. I decided to make my own ppt file, which I put pieces from her file, from
my note when I took Mr. Irya’s class 4 years ago, from practical module, and
also from internet. I spent hours to made it perfect, making me didn’t have
time to practice my speaking. It was 00.30 am when I went to my bed. My eyes
were so sleepy, but when I laid.. my mind was flying away to the moon and
stars, making me couldn’t sleep at all until the morning came.

I went to
campus at 7 am, starting my practical class together with my assistants. Time
flied..

8.00 am - my
heart started beating faster..

8.30 am - I
put off my shoes and tried to relax myself.

9.00 am - I was
shaking..

9.30 am - I took
the presence sheet and the classroom’s key.

9.40 am - I went upstairs, opened the door, and turned on
the devices. I was so confused because the table was locked in many parts of it.
There was about 60 pair of eyes stared at me. My sweat was in my entire body. It
was very hot temperature in the front, haha..

Before I started my class, I guessed the boys laughed at
me. Yea, right… Then I started to speak and interact with them. Everything
became easier, but not when I asked them to write notes. Some of them didn’t
write it until I walked near their table. Huff.. 2^nd session class
was ended at 11.50 am.. and the 3^rd was at 02.20 pm.

I think I’ve tried my best to teach today. You should give me
A+ for it.. Haha.. Just kidding.. It’s just OK, but it’s good for the first
shot. It was tiring, but I enjoyed it. And the class.. I think they loved me..
err.. at least, the boys did.. after I said that it was my one and only time to
teach ‘em this semester, they answered “noooooo, we want more…”, hahaha… Nice

I’m going to sleep now.. Have a nice dream.. xoxo!!